The [Struggle] Bus.

Hop Aboard! All is welcome on this bus. No need to have a pass or ticket. Admission is free. Just bring your struggles with you, so we all can see how much we are all a little [or alot] mentally unstable.

I share with you this.
I'm usually thinking  about: EVERYTHING.
Which, when I can't control the amount of info that is NOT being processed I usually resort to this: EXISTENTIAL CRISIS.
And then I obsessively think about, well him.
I, for my mental health's stake will not mention his name, because, well, he might read this. DON'T want that happening. But yeah, no matter what I could be doing; whether it be talking about how much I don"t like feet, to buying a whole carton of mint chocolate chip ice cream.... its like "Oh hey there! I didn't intentionally want to think about your hair, or eyes, or just YOU. But there you are. In my mind. Poisoning all my sane thoughts. Yay."    
I've learned that patience in this kind of situation is EXTREMELY difficult. 
Me, being an extrovert wants to be like, " HEY, let's go get some lunch and talk about ourselves"
But then the introverted part of me is like, "I'll just stand over here in the distance and create scenarios in my mind of how I can avoid making myself look like an idiot around you" Plus, i've been told that waiting for him to say something is usually best. But then that would mean walking over to him and saying hey, giving him the opportunity to say something. MEH. I'm struggling.[Beep Beep] 
Forever driving the struggle bus, and living the single life.