Ignoramus.

I'm not sure if I’ll actually post this or not because it may get a little bit personal.

But if you're reading this currently, it means that I posted it.

 Duh.

I have feelings.

I may not necessarily show them all the time,

But they’re there. Promise.

So at the age of twenty, I am going to discuss the subject of boys.

Yep. Boys.

I do this thing where I’ll like someone for a good period of time then outta no where

They throw the “Oh, Arielle?

Her and I are just friends” phrase in my face.

Why you do this?

It crushes me into a million tiny little pieces.

I swear I’ve been sprayed with permanent “attractive guy repellent”.

 For weeks I’d look at my phone helplessly only to see no text message

From someone I potentially care a lot about.

Ok they might be busy, but hey. So am I.

But you boys are so freaking confusing.

I’ll have this inkling of someone potentially liking me.

Then years later I come to find out you did like me, but didn’t do ANYTHING about it.

I mean what the crap?

Why don’t you guys just grow a pear and say something for once?

Oh you guys also do this thing where you’ll text and talk to us and flirt with us like you

Like us.

WRONG.

You’re just being a “nice guy”.

NO. You are an ignoramus if you think that.

Here’s lesson 1 in the book of “How woman Think”:

You can’t flirt with us without us having the slightest idea that you like us.

We WILL think that you like us. Then if the flirting continues, then WE WILL END UP LIKING YOU.

But chill out. Us liking you is not us declaring that we want your babies,

Or wanna get married right then and there

Or even want a serious relationship. Not yet anyways.

All we want AT THAT VERY MOMENT is for you to just acknowledge

The fact that you too care about us.

So send us cute text messages.

Get to know us. Be genuinely interested.

THEN.

IF... (I say if lightly because it  almost NEVER happens)

We approve of you, we may be interested in a relationship.

This is when you should ask us out.

But seriously, that NEVER BLOODY HAPPENS.

I’m at this stage in life where a lot of my friends

are already in serious relationships.

And getting married.

I’ll jokingly say, “haha I want to get married right now!”

When I don’t actually have any desire of getting married

Right now.

I honestly just want that person in my life that I can care for on such a level of profoundness... I can't even fathom that yet.

Because at the same time, I am insanely terrified of being in a relationship.

How the heck is that possible?

I guess I am now and forever will be
 the [Ignoramus] with the awesome permanent attractive guy repellent sprayed all over me.